I’ve been working at one of the big 4 for about a year now and I’m completely lost.
I am not entirely sure why I was hired since I don’t have an audit nor accounting profile to begin with. I took the job because after sending hundreds of emails these people were the only ones that answered and accepted.
While it was fine at first, I can no longer deliver requests on time. It takes me way too long to understand what I’m supposed to be doing, how to do it, how to format it, and deliver it; and I’m constantly running into mistakes or setbacks. I am tasked to fill 20 documents in a week and I’m at a point where I can’t even deliver 5.
It’s obvious to me that I have to quit eventually, what I’m conflicted with is whether to do it right now. I don’t want to just disappear out of nowhere in the middle of a project, and leave the team to handle my disasters. But I can’t keep up anymore either. Nor do I have an alternative job option.
It’s also only a matter of time a manager has enough of me and drops me, and I don’t want to taint my empty CV with a bad review as the only reference, not to mention this is my first ever formal job. I want to at least have a good reference, since going job hunting without experience or a degree is a death sentence.
Thus, I don’t know what to do.