Newbie Sous Chef. I wanna to quit.
I’ve been working at this place for 3 years. I have been a prep and line cook for 5 years.
My executive chef bought the resturant we work at and then promoted my boyfriend and I to sous chef. We manage breakfast, lunch, and dinner. We also have a full pastry and commercial bakery.. My boss is learning how to be a owner and I’m learning to be a sous chef and its definitely a figure it out on your own kind of thing. I didn’t go to culinary school, I’ve never been a manager. We pretty much do everything except for hiring and firing.
Staffing has been a total nightmare. I know most people on here can relate. I’ve lost so many people before our busiest time of year. It never used to be like this, but everyone is calling off al on the fucking time and our kitchen is not huge and I don’t have a reserve of people to cover.
I was already burnt out before the promotion from trying to keep a resturant properly staffed, by just covering shifts. My boss basically left the line for 6 months while he was trying to buy our resturant and didn’t hand over responsibility to us yet for some reason and its just been a unstable mess since.
My boyfriend and I are definitely getting into a bad point. We don’t fight but I definitely am noticing a rise in tension. And we’ve only been doing this for 5 months but we never had tension like this before.
I want to quit. But my God that is complicated. I don’t want to leave I like where I work. I still have stuff to learn. I don’t want to fuck them over and I don’t want to leave my boyfriend in the dust to let him pick up the pieces.
I feel inexperienced to take on this responsibility on my own. I feel so insecure because I haven’t been able to rise and overcome my anxiety and I want to quit.
I don’t have a degree, or a house. I want to stop living paycheck to paycheck. I don’t know what to do