I’m 28, and chose to study teaching. I love teaching but every year it feels less and less like teaching. There are so many exhausting extras that make it feel like I have no life outside of my classroom and even then no real impact within it either. We won’t even go into behaviour.
I tried moving to a new country to perhaps reignite the passion and currently I’ve been here for almost 2 months. While this feels incredibly short I just feel even more like I’m not teaching. Doing everything but teaching. There are times where you just know that it’s time to move on.
I’ve recently had a child of my own and I can’t even enjoy parenting. I’m too exhausted. My child gets the worst of me and my heart is breaking as I try to find just that little bit more to give while ultimately scraping an empty barrel.
I’ve given thought to change, but not sure what to change to.
Something completely away from the classroom and people while still affording me time with my child during school holidays as we won’t have a support option from family given the move. We also don’t have a car so I was leaning towards remote work that won’t take a massive pay cut.
I’m willing to retrain. I’m hoping I’m not too late to make an impactful, and positive change to my life. As much as I’d like to keep thinking of the kids and stay for the kids, I can’t help but wonder if my presence has any meaning given how empty I’ve been feeling and just exhausted. I can’t see myself doing this for another year nevermind the rest of my working life.
Some things I considered before teaching but didn’t really pursue were more technically based careers. Computers, engineering, data processing. If it helps I’m currently in the UK.
I hope this doesn’t come across as whining or making excuses. I’m really just looking for a viable out. I’m also looking for options regarding therapy, I’ve begun a more active life, and I’ve started being more conscious of healthy choices. I’m trying to be better for my family and myself.