I’m a college graduate with a bachelor’s degree in environmental architecture and urbanism. I graduated in the summer of 2021. Since then, I’ve been stuck with nothing to do.
I’ve been diagnosed with ADD, BPD, depression, and anxiety in the past year. All of this led me to not have any confidence in my capabilities. I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing and can’t possibly be any good to anyone who will think to hire me. Every time I look at my half-finished portfolio, I feel so ashamed that I can’t even think of anyone seeing it. I know it’s really bad. On top of everything, I have no work experience whatsoever. All of this would’ve been acceptable if I had done anything to improve myself in the past year but all I did was wallow in how bad everything is.
I know I’m all over the place but English isn’t my first language and I’m so frustrated all my thoughts are running together so I’m just pouring them here.